Lost Weight...

So I weighed myself after Ramadan was over, and I lost close to 5 pounds (somehow). I think it was probably because I didn't eat very much at all, and therefore I thought I lost mostly muscle mass (because in metabolism, first thing to go is your stored carbs in the form of glycogen, and then the next thing to start being broken down is proteins -- if I remember correctly from my biochem/metabolism class). Anyways, I thought I lost mostly muscle mass prob from my legs since I really didn't do any heavy walking. Now, I have to dress up nearly every week because of seeing standardized patients and seeing real patients, and the med school's policy is to look professional every and any time there is a patient (real or standardized) involved. So, I have to dress up, which is a pain in the ass, but, a lot of my shirts can double as casual and dressy if i stick it with my white coat and dress pants so it works out. What's pissing me off is that the weight I lost is apparently around my WAIST. Because of that, my dress pants now all have the gap and a belt doesn't look right bc it bunches up in the back under my shirt. Normally, I wouldn't care so much since I'd have my white coat over it, but its hot, and I can't wear that coat all the time and I don't like wearing it when I'm studying bc knowing my clumsy ass, I'd probably get highlighter all over the sleeves -- I mean, that's already happened once.
But yea, I'm mad my dress pants don't fit me right anymore. >.<
They used to fit around the waist and hips and I thought I was so lucky for finding dress pants that fit.
Why couldn't the weight have been from my hips?????? :(

On another note, I hate the book we're supposed to read out of for this class. Its so wordy and the author could say things much more concisely if she wanted to, but nooo, she decided to be a wordy and pretentious butthead. I'm seriously considering not reading it for my test bc it sucks. Ugh.

Until the next one then.

Med school is kind of lonely... I thought I was okay with it.. maybe not. Who knows? I sure as hell don't. All I know is that I've gone two days without seeing another human being, which might have something to do with it. I've been holed up in my place trying to study but failing miserably. I've only listened and gone over three lectures since Friday afternoon, and that's something I do on a regular basis everyday.
*sigh*
:(

Until the next one then.

I just signed up for a $700 review course for the USMLE step 1 exam that I'll be taking in the summer next year. O_o

Freaking out just a little bit.

Until the next one then.

*Sigh*

This pulmonary final is going to kick my ass.
I feel stupid even though I've gone over it a million times.
The practice exam was friggin unbelievable. If the real thing is like that, I dunno what's going to happen... Well, I got like a 80 on it, but the real thing is always harder than the practice even though the questions are supposedly drawn from the same question bank. Ugh.

Other things bothering me... hmm...
It doesn't feel like Ramadan. I'm fasting and stuff, but I've been so busy with exams that I haven't had time to do other things.
All my med school friends are dating someone. Its annoying me bc I sit there when they're complaining or having discussion about their boyfriends, and all I can think about is, Really? Shouldn't you be happy you're in a relationship??
I'm convinced I'm going to be single forever... but we'll see.

Until the next one then.