10th Bday!

The brother turned 10 today! Wow, I feel old. Ten years ago, on this day, I was at the hospital holding a hairy baby and in denial that I had a younger sibling. I think that's why all the pictures of me from that day look strange and uncomfortable haha. However, I won't forget the summer afterwards, where we really bonded. In high school, we took naps in the afternoon together, and that kid would not let me do my homework. He either had to be in my lap or sitting on the desk next to me, especially when he was around 1-2. He would always bother my dad if he had work to do, and always stole my dad's highlighters and markers to play with and would get upset if my dad tried to take them back, hahahaha. There's a video somewhere of my brother saying, "Daddy... euirhgskdhgdkhg" with my dad saying, "Really, beta? tell me more" and he did in his strange gurgling language. Its the most adorable video ever. That same kid is TEN now. The same kid told me that the boys get to watch a video next year (the girls watched one this year), and he thinks its about "how wieners grow when you get older." Good lord. Why did he grow up so fast?

Anyways. Enough sappiness.

I've been busayy lately. Moving in took quite some time, and i'm finally all settled in. They FINALLY fixed the leak in the bathtub and refinished my bathtub so its like new again! Yay! Its just, I don't know how long I have to wait before I can take a shower again. I'm guessing a day or two. Ah its ok. I'll manage. It just really smells terrible everywhere except my room. The stuff they used STINKS SOOO BAD and they didn't turn on the exhaust in the bathroom or the kitchen. At least, I kept my bedroom door closed today and the fumes didn't go into my room. I'm kind of scared to leave my room bc it prob smells everywhere still. Anyways, now all that's left is fixing the ceiling tiles in the bathroom, which i think they were cutting outside when I came home today. So maybe it'll get put in tomorrow? Dunno. They can come and do it. They have my keys. I can't be here 24/7 bc i have class.

Finals in 2 weeks and I'm not as nervous as I should be. Its not bc I'm confident, but its bc I'm just so tired now. I'm pushing myself at this point. I am having such a hard time focusing its not even funny. I have 1 final in exactly 1 week and my other 2 are on next Friday. Its already 6:30 today ughh. My goal for today was to listen to all the lectures from yesterdya and today, and to listen to 2 old lectures for my how to be a doctor class and then to read for PBL tomorrow bc we have a quiz, and then maybe start going over lectures from the begining again (this time with highlighers haha).

May 29th... my last day of MSI... I can't wait... MSII is going to be rough with a giant number of classes AND boards. Blahhh... someone quick, remind me why I'm torturing myself??

I'm exhausted both from waking up early today and from studying :(

Until the next one then.

Anyone there?

Apparently no one reads this anymore. :(

I guess it makes sense.

I've only been whining bc I've been having a crappy ass week.

Damn, its already Friday. I have an exam next Monday on the 27th, and I'm not ready for it at all. I'm a BIT screwed.

I need to clean and go grocery shopping and go to the student run clinic this weekend.

I'm really tired right now.

I'm thinking of taking a nap for an hour, and then waking up and studying.
I have 2 lectures to go over from today plus the readings, and I also need to get through three more labs this weekend. I should possibly start going over the posted learning issues for PBL. Oh, and while I'm doing that, I probably should do my drug chart. I only did it in MCT and never did anything for PHD. I know when boards come around, I will be kicking myself. That paper that I had due last week got pushed to the 24th, so I need to work on that this weekend too.

Not much else going on.

I'm really sleepy.

I guess I'm not expecting any comments haha.

I have like, no motivation whatsoever right now.

If you ever need to get a hold of me, for whatever reason, call me, text me, find me on yahoo messenger. Its apparently always signed in even without me knowing, but since I'm in front of the computer for like 3459348754 hours every day, I will get the mssg.

K, I'm going to take a nap now, and then wake up later and work work work.

Until the next one then.

FML

Ughhhhhhhhh things just aren't going my way at all these days...

1. Neuro is HARD. I just don't understand and nothing is sticking.
   
2. The midterm is in 1.5 weeks... and i don't know ANYTHING!!
   
3. My place is still not ready. Prob won't be until 25thish
   
4. The people who own the condo I'm living in now are strongly hinting at me leaving at the end of April, which is fine if they finish my place by then. However, if my place isn't ready by then, WHERE WILL I GO?
   
5. I'm tired and I need a break from studying. I've been going strong since the beginning of January... I still have until May 29th before I get any sort of break from studying. I think I'm very close to being burnt out if I'm not already...
   
6. EFFING COCKROACHES. I kill at least 2 everyday. WHERE ARE THEY COMING FROM?!?! My parents said that the roach bait ends up attracting cockroaches after awhile. My guess is that's the reason. I have 3 dead roaches in my apartment right now because I was too nauseous to throw them away this morning. I will do it when I get back to my apartment, and I think I will change the roach bait in the kitchen asap. I thought I could wait a mere two weeks, but these fat mofos aren't letting me relax. My phobia has gotten so bad that the roach spray is never more than 3 feet away.
   
7. I woke up this morning and I had a flat. An effing flat tire. I walked to school today... it took me 30 minutes. I sweated through my makeup.. ugh. A drive usually takes 5-10 mins including parking. On bad days, 15 minutes because of looking for parking. I haven't walked that much since UT.
   
8. Makeup brings me to my next point... My skin is terrible... I had to invest in actual makeup to start covering it up. I never thought I'd be the type to wear makeup everyday, but I am now. Ugh. Too much hassle... But, I figured its either too much hassle or looking like a prepubescent boy.
   
9. Sunday, when I was driving back to Galveston, I got pulled over for speeding. I swear I wasn't speeding too badly and I nearly cried, but the cop let me go with a warning.
   
10. WHY ME????
    

Until the next one then.

My brachial plexus is missing!!

ADSKHSKGHSKDGHHFSKH

OMG

I LOST MY BEAUTIFUL DIAGRAM OF THE BRACHIAL PLEXUS

WTF

WHERE DID IT GOOOOOOO

AGHHHHHHHHH

It was so beautiful. Diagram of the nerves on one side and a list of muscles they innervate on the other side, color coded, and hand-drawn to perfection. IT TOOK ME THREE HOURS TO DO DURING ANATOMY!!!!

I've spent an hour looking for it because I NEED IT FOR PBL. I have no idea where it went but I looked through all my school possessions TWICE. The only place it can be now is at home... I'm praying that its there... But I don't know how I'm going to explain to my mom what it looks like :-/ And it doesn't make sense of why it would be there. I know I brought it back with me to study for the midterm after the hurricane... Agh. It wouldn't just disappear... :(

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I am an idiot. I found it in a manilla envelope that I must have stuffed it in after anatomy class was over. I didn't think to look in it because I haven't looked at the stuff in that envelope since orientation. *rolls eyes* I'm so stupid...

--//--End Edit--//--

Until the next one.

Overwhelmed...

I have way too much to do and way too much to learn. I don't know how I'm going to do it all.

I hate having "how to be a doctor: class on tuesdays bc just when I think I can catch up on Monday's stuff, I can't because I have that class until 4, and then its already Wednesday. I think I'm going to have to start going to lecture again. I'm behind by 3 lectures, and they're all anatomy ones so they're going to take forever to get through.

Neuro is BAD. I knew it would be hard, but I didn't think it would be this bad :(
I think I'm just freaking out also because I have stuff due in my "how to be a doctor" class too... a useless paper and a case write up... Ugh, I am so late on that case write up. I hope they aren't too mean to me. I will do it tomorrow. It shouldn't take too much time so I guess I'll write it up during my lunch break. I need to start working on that paper though...

I think I'm freaking out because I don't know what I need to work on first. I just need to write out exactly what needs to be done, and STICK TO IT.

Tuesday:

• Morning before lab: review brainstem and cranial nerves anatomy for lab
• ALSO IN THE MORNING: call contractor, eye doctor, & fp office for preceptorship finalization
• Lab at 10am
• Lunch: Case write up & submission; if there's time left over, review instructions for paper
• How to be a doctor class at 1 -- special presentation on dementia in LHN
• Prob be done around 3 or 4? --> home
• PBL Learning Issue - Phantom limb - what causes it and why; post onto PBL google group
• Go over remaining learning issues to prepare for PBL quiz next day
• Reading assignments for PBL (nolte and kandel and articles only)

Wednesday:

• GO TO CLASS (2 lectures, 2 hours of PBL)
• Lunch/Start prewrite for paper
• Thalamus lecture + scribes + reading
• Somatosensory lecture 1 + scribes + reading
• Somatosensory lecture 2 + scribes + reading
• Start writing paper

Thursday:

• Lab at 8am
• FINISH WRITING PAPER
• PBL Learning issues (if any)
• If finish, then go over neural anatomy lectures since the beginning
• Reflexes lecture if time

Friday:

• Lecture, PBL, Lecture, PBL Wrapup
• Reflex lecture
• Somatosensory lectures
• Review friday lectures
• SUBMIT PAPER BEFORE 5pm
• Review PBL Case 1 and Case 2 learning issues

Whew. What a busy week. I feel better now that I wrote out a schedule. I usually overestimate how much I'll be able to do so I will probably be a little behind... Oh well. The most important things to finish this week is the write up, paper, and PBL stuff. Keeping up with lecture is just something I have to do on the side no matter what.
Gosh, I'm so sleepy right now, but I need to go over the anatomy junk at least once before I go to sleep. The good thing is that I've done the cranial nerves once already, and hopefully, they won't be too bad this time around... even though I barely remember them... :/

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Dear Pre-meds,
Please rethink going to med school. I say this for fear of you losing your sanity like me. I'm verrryyyy close to snapping. I also say this because no matter how bad you imagine it, the real thing is a lot worse just because of the sheer volume of information you're expected to retain.
Love
Nads, MSI

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In other news, there were two cockroaches cavorting around my kitchen counter today... *shudder*... They both slipped underneath the crack between the counter and the cabinets. I waited with my can of roach spray until I saw them again, and one of them began poking its antennae out and i zapped it with the spray. It fell to the ground flailing and I drowned that mofo in roach spray. Its accomplice is still at large. I know I'm going to end up walking on it hanging out on my counter tomorrow morning. UGHHH.
I CANNOT WAIT UNTIL I AM OUT OF HERE. I WANT TO MOVE BACK INTO MY OWN PLACE. MY OWN CLEAN CLEAN CLEAN CLEAN PLACE. AGHHHHHHhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!
I HATE COCKROACHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There was a used book sale today on campus. I got 5 books that I will be needing in the future for $65 total. Hell yes... Except... They're used and highlighted in :/ Buuuut, I had to sacrifice somewhere... either brand new costing a lot of money or dirtcheap and being a bit highlighted. *shrugs* I'm po' and I decided to test my OCD.

Until the next one then.